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It wears my nerves when my blog gets spammed! It's only happened a few times, but it's annoying. I'll get a message saying I have a new blog comment, and I will be all happy thinking it's a friend from EP and there it is "buy this, buy that, work here..."

I guess it's like when the phone rings and you're thinking it's friend or family and it's a stupid sales call.

Speaking of which, I sometimes get calls to buy a home security system. I kindly explain to these people I live in a secured animal preserve with a guarded front gate and 24/7 security that drives around and I also have a big dog and a gun, so please remove me from your calling list.

The other evening I got another one of these calls, and the chick was persistent and I didn't want to be a straight up bitch because I know she's just doing her job, but finally I told her that if HER security people were able to get past MY security people, then I would look into buying her security services! LOL!

Today was an absolutely horrible day and I don't know why.

I was grumpy yesterday for no reason. I'm not PMSing and things in life are pretty okay. No enormous worries right now.

But today was just horrible. Not that anything horrible happened, it was a pretty easy day, it just FELT like a horrible day, and I'm so glad to be home.

My boyfriend will be here soon. I will probably fall asleep early on him.

I hope he is in the mood for chicken fried rice this evening because that's what I picked up! LOL! Tomorrow we are going to have Lasanga and garlic bread and a vegetable tray for dinner.

I'm glad he isn't a picky eater.

It's supposed to get colder starting tonight, and probably rain. I guess I just need to accept that Winter is knocking at the door.

My Dad wants to write a book but he doesn't know what about yet, so that should be an interesting thing to go through with him.

He wants me to help him with the 'descriptive parts', such as explaining the green trees, etc.

LOL! Should be an interesting experience, and it will be more time with my Dad!

Mom said she doesn't care what he writes about so long as he dedicates it to her.

My parents are getting more adorable the older they get. I'm so glad I keep a hand written Journal of everything, including the little things they say and come up with and that happen, Such as Dad's 'foot emergency' that just turned out to be a mild case of athletes foot. Heh heh!

Life is never boring with them in it.

Not much to write about, and I am thankful for that, because it means, at least for this moment, everything is okay.

Light and Peace and a great weekend to all

-ZK

So today was a pretty good day. I got quite a bit done around the house.

A little bit aggravated with some people in my 'real' world right now. No, not my parents and not my boyfriend.

I think sometimes I live too much in 'my little world', and just hate when people try to bring their lame drama into it. Some people just never seem to grow up and allow Junior High School drama into their lives.

I really don't want to listen and offer advice anymore over silly stuff like that. I really don't.

And I'm not going to anymore.

Anyway, boyfriend is coming to stay starting tomorrow evening when I get home from work, and he will stay until sometime Sunday.

Looking forward to spending time with him.

It is turning colder, and it is supposed to snow on Thanksgiving.

Just looking forward to a relaxing weekend with my boyfriend, hanging out together and watching movies and LOTS and LOTS of cuddling! :)

I had set my alarm clock for 7:30 a.m. because I planned on getting out of bed then, taking care of my animals, and then drink some coffee and slowly get into my day.

I'm off work today, and want to get some things done around the house before the weekend.

I ended up laying in with my animals until 9:30...

It was really nice, and I still have plenty of day to get things done.

And what doesn't get done, just doesn't get done!

I'm really trying to not stress over the little things anymore. I mean seriously, it's no big deal if I don't get everything done around here today.

It's another chilly, overcast day. I'm enjoying being home today.

I do have to drive off the mountain later and go to the store and post office, but I'm going to wait until I'm finished (or close enough) with things here at the house, so I can just enjoy the long drive and not feel like I have to rush back home and do things.

I'm learning to slow down and enjoy life instead of racing through everything.

I have a sinus headache due to the rain, and I'm in a bit of a grumpy mood this morning, but I hope both the headache and bad mood will wear off soon.

They usually do.

On a happy note: Boyfriend called me last night and said his Dad called him. Boyfriends Dad is really nice, but he's one of those quiet people who doesn't talk alot, and he usually doesn't call his sons and talk to them on the phone just out of the blue.

He called to ask if boyfriend and I were going to boyfriends parents house for Thanksgiving.

Boyfriend told  him we were, and his Dad said he was glad.

(I need to come up with a nickname to use to refer to boyfriend in my blogs instead of boyfriend-saying boyfriend over and over is annoying! LOL!)

My boyfriend has to work the day after Thanksgiving and I will be off.

I think we will spend Thanksgiving Day with his family as they live an hour and a half away, and then I will spend Friday with my parents and both of us will spend Saturday with my family.

We will work it out somehow. I'm just happy to be able to enjoy the Holiday this year, as I've worked Thanksgiving day for the past 6 years.

Another awesome benefit of my new job! :) Holidays off! Yay!!! And weekends off too! Double yay!

Dreading Christmas though, because I just hate how commercialized it's gotten and ugh... I don't know what to buy for people.

But you know what? RIGHT NOW, I'm going to stop worrying about that too!

It will all work out somehow.

I just wasn't prepared to have a boyfriend this Christmas and his family! LOL!

Actually, I have worked just about every Holiday the past six years, so having the Holidays to actually enjoy feels odd!

I almost feel like someone is going to swoop in and take it away from me LOL!

When I was in the medical field, I always volunteered to work Christmas, so that someone with children could have it off. I know if I had kids, I would want to spend Christmas with them.

Actually, I'm looking forward to spending time with my boyfriend, after all the visiting with family is done, and watch A Christmas Story with him, while we drink Eggnog.

I work tomorrow and then don't go back until Tuesday. I'm only working two days next week.

I'm enjoying this part time schedule while it lasts, but am looking forward to going full time next year.

So, I'm going to try and chill and enjoy the day, even though parts of it will be busy.

I just need to learn to chill and go with the flow and enjoy the moments -LIVE- in the moment, instead of worrying and stressing about things in the future that may or may not happen.

Light and Peace

-ZK

*UPDATE*

OKAY, I HAVEN'T LOOKED TO SEE IF THIS IS EP-WIDE, BUT THIS MORNING I NOTICED ON MY PROFILE UNDER 'OCCUPATION' THAT A FEW THINGS SUCH AS "NURSE PRACTITIONER" AND "INSURANCE" WERE GREEN AND UNDERLINED. I CLICKED ON IT AND GOT SENT TO A LINK ABOUT BECOMING A NURSE. NOW, AFTER POSTING THIS BLOG, I DISCOVERED THE WORD "LEARNING" IS IN GREEN AND UNDERLINED.

SERIOUSLY EP??? I KNOW YOU NEED MONEY AND THAT'S FINE, BUT GEEZ. UGH... I'M NOT EVEN GOING TO PM THEM AND COMPLAIN BECAUSE THERE IS NOT POINT.

*BREATHE*

I'M JUST HAPPY I MET SOME AMAZING PEOPLE HERE!!!

OKAY, SORRY TO VENT BUT THAT'S REALLY LAME IF KEYWORDS IN OUR BLOGS ARE GETTING HI-LIGHTED SO PEOPLE CAN GO TO ADVERTISING LINKS!!!!

LIGHT AND PEACE TO ALL MY EPEEPS!!!

Woke up to a rainy day, which would have been perfect to stay home curled up with a good book. But, I went to work and had a pretty decent day.

They are already decorating the streets downtown for Christmas! Ugh! I hate how it seems the Holidays are rushed. Before you know it, Valentines Day stuff will be out!

It was extrememly windy today.

I am at my parents house now, doing their laundry to help them out, and to visit for a bit.

Tomorrow I am off work, so I will do my own laundry and housework tomorrow and get ready for my boyfriend to visit for the weekend.

I plan to relax and read some tonight after I get home.

I still hate the time change and that it gets dark at 5:30 pm. I will be griping about that until the time changes again.

My Mom asked if I thought I might marry my boyfriend one day. I told her we would have to live together first. But, one day, we probably will. It just feels right.

I honestly see us having a pretty good life together, and able to handle the ups and downs together.

We shall see, one day at a time.

Not much to write about today. It was a decent day, and nothing out of the ordinary happened.

Light and Peace

-ZK

So before going to bed last night and first thing when I woke up this morning, I prayed.

Just felt like I needed to have a nice talk with God,and hoped He listened.

Work went well today, it was a pretty quiet day.

Very, very windy outside. Kind of fun. :)

On my way home from work, my Mom called me and asked if I could stop by her and Dad's because she needed to talk to me. She sounded really sad, and I thought perhaps something bad had happened with someone in the family.

Well, my thoughts were correct. My Aunt and Uncle are getting divorced. I won't go into details because it is their personal business, but we are stunned and sad and are hoping for the best somehow.

Mom told me she'd been waiting all day to talk with me because she needed someone to talk to. Dad listens, but he's not good with consoling people when something is wrong.

I clearly didn't get my medical bedside manner from him! LOL!

So, yes, sometimes I get irritated because it seems everyone calls me for advice or a listening ear, or basic medical care, but at least I know why I'm on this planet. :)

I just need to learn when to step back and take care of ME for a little while. And my boyfriend is WONDERFUL at taking care of me. We seem to do well balancing that out. We LOVE spoiling each other.

So, I come home and my animals are ready for our evening romp. When the cats discovered the heavy wind, they went back into the house! LOL! So, me and Axel played.

But alas, due to the crummy time change it gets dark way too early and the wind started cutting chilly through us so we went back inside.

So, there it is. I think this is a good evening to listen to the wind, curl up with a good book and a hot mocha, and just unwind.

Light and Peace

-ZK

I woke up at 8 this morning, but laid in with my pets until 10.

Slowly made my way through the morning.

Mom called asking if I would drive her to the pharmacy so she could pick up a new prescription her Doctor called in for her.

It's a beautiful sunny day, a perfect day for a drive, so I took her on her errand and then dropped her off back home.

She had gotten me a necklace that says: A Journey Begins With A Single Step.

I really like it. I thought it was sweet of her, because I am starting on a new journey and when I look at the whole picture I feel overwhelmed. This will remind me to take it a step at a time.

I am doing a good job keeping my hand-written journal updated on a regular basis.

My work schedule is a little different this week, and next week, I will only be working two days because of the Thanksgiving Holiday.

Looking forward to Thanksgiving. I guess me and my boyfriend will split the day between our families.

Today I'm just going to do a few random things around the house, and then maybe read some.

I left a big plastic shopping bag on the living room floor, and my cats are having a blast with it. I cut the plastic straps so they won't get tangled up in those, and I'm keeping a close eye on them. They are so funny!

Last Thursday evening, my boyfriend fell down the steps of his place, and hurt his big toe. I think his toenail will fall off.

On Saturday evening, I fell down my steps! LOL! I'm a little stiff and sore on my right side.

My skin is so dry for some reason. I guess its the crazy weather. It will be freezing cold for 3 days, and then in the 70's for a week.

I made some body butter and I'm going to use it later after I take a shower. I've never suffered from dry skin before, and this is driving me crazy. :P

I really need to drink more water. I am bad about not drinking water.

I am still enjoying my used 'new to me' car. I cannot believe it is mine! It's the nicest car I've ever had.

The one brand new car I bought back in 89, turned out to be a lemon, so I've went used ever since.

It's nice not having car payments and high insurance. And it's great that my Dad and his friends can work on used cars. Saves me lots of money!

I'm still working on finding my balance with things, but I WILL get there! LOL!

I'm just so used to being on a non-stop adrenaline rush, it's hard for me to relax.

And I'm so used to being in charge and taking care of EVERYTHING, it's hard to sit back and just let some things roll.

My boyfriend took my kitchen trash out to the big trashcan the other evening, and that small thing meant the world to me.

It's nice having a calm life now, with its routine and such. I'm just having trouble adjusting to it.

I miss healthcare, even though I'm still keeping one foot in the door, but I really like this calm life.

Mom said it's kind of like when you breakup with someone or they break up with you, and all you remember for awhile are the good parts of the past realtionship and not the bad.

She reminded me of the 16 hour shifts and being on call and rarely having a weekend or Holiday off, and how much I used to wish for a normal life.

GOOD POINT MOM!

I ran into one of the nurses who used to work for me at the Clinic, and she came over and hugged me and told me I looked rested. :)

I told her I felt rested. I told her I miss them but feel I made the right decision.

She said alot of people left after I did.

Healthcare in America is going downhill so quickly.

I am really concerned.

I guess I should hop off of here for awhile and get a few more things done, and then relax and read some.

Light and Peace

-ZK

I had a very nice weekend. It went by too quickly.

It didn't go quite the way I planned, but it was good nonetheless.

On Friday, I ran some quick errands downtown and went grocery shopping. Got home and was getting ready for boyfriend to come visit for the weekend, when my Dad calls, complaining about his foot. I had a selfish thought for a brief moment because as you know, I was wanting a totally "ME" weekend. So, instead of asking questions, I just drove to my parents home.

Turns out he just has a case of athletes foot! LOL! Ah well, it saved him a trip to the Doctor.

I sprayed their bathtub down with Lysol and Dad said he thinks he got it from their carpet and not the tub. I didn't know how to respond to that so I just told him to keep his feet clean and dry and wear socks on the carpet. Heh heh. Poor Dad, I didn't want to get into it over his old favorite pair of tennis shoes.

So, that evening, boyfriend arrives and we watch the football game on tv. Our team lost. Oh well.

We went to bed after that,and it was nice just to sleep safe and warm in his arms.

We slept in on Saturday and he fed my pets and then we romped with them outside for a little while.

Somehow, we decided we wanted to go to town and go to Goodwill and look at some clothes, and then go to IHOP to eat. He had never eaten there before.

I had a blast at Goodwill. I found some nice sweaters, and a couple more pairs of dress pants, and two nice purses.

Boyfriend found himself a few more shirts too.

He totally loved IHOP. :) We came home and relaxed outside for awhile, then watched a Documentary he had brought. It was very interesting. It was called: Paradise Lost, and was about the murders of 3 little boys, and the 3 teenagers accused of killing them. The teenagers were convicted without ANY physical evidence.

So, me and boyfriend had a nice relaxing weekend. I am more comfortable having him in my personal space, and could not imagine life without him.

He just lets me be ME. And he is just such a gentle, peaceful soul. And we can just sit and talk about general random things, and have a blast with it.

My parents really like him.

I guess we are now looking towards Thanksgiving.

The weather has been insanely lovely, but I think it will be turning more towards Winter as we get closer to the end of the week.

Seems I had more to write about, but there is a show on the History channel about World War Two that I haven't seen before, so I shall stop for now.

Light and Peace

-ZK

Sometimes life beats me up a little. Hey, it happens.

I took it easy this week. Fortunately work was pretty easy this week, and I just crashed on my couch each evening after work.

I'm going to pick up some around my house here shortly, then run to the store and the Dollar Store. Then, I'm going to be totally worthless and lazy until Sunday afternoon.

I've been writing in my hand-written Journal and it has been like a miracle cure for my mood and such.

I had forgotten the magic of keeping a hand-written Journal.

I had stepped away from my EP blog for a couple of days, and missed it more than I realized.

An EP friend explained there is no reason why I cannot keep both my EP blog and my hand-written Journl.

She reminded me that in my EP blog I only need to share what I want to share, but a hand written Journal is meant for the deep soul-searching, pouring out of my thoughts and feelings.

She said my EP blog can be whatever I want it to be.

Good point! *Thanks* (You know who you are hon)

Now I have a Confession:

Wednesday and Thursday mornings, I woke up cramping horribly and in a totally hateful mood. I bitched and moaned my way through getting ready for the day.

I feel so bad about doing this, because it affected my animals.

I didn't realize it until this morning when I slept in, and they actually let me sleep in until I was ready to get up at 9 a.m.

I think they made the connection and were scared to do their usual waking me up.

I'M SO SORRY MY SWEET BABIES!!!!

Even my new kitten behaved, and she usually doesn't give two hoots about what the rest of the world wants or needs, as she is quite the little 'Princess' and very selfish! LOL!

We are supposed to be getting some mountain snow, so I will take them out in a little while and let them play their little hearts out.

My boyfriend will be coming later to stay tonight and tomorrow night.

I explained to him I'm not going to be the most interesting company, because I have a lot of Journal writing to do, and I'm reading a great book, and I also want to do some stuff with my oil pastels.

He said he doesn't mind, he is just happy to be with me. :)

I am not taking care of much of anything this weekend, and I'm not taking care of anyone this weekend.

So much on my mind, as I have alot of big decisions to make by the start of the New Year.

I will come from the weekend stronger and happier, and ready to face whatever comes and I will be able and willing to be there for others again.

I think sometimes they don't realize how much they drain me. So many people expect me to be there for them for different reasons.

And perhaps, I have put too much on my own plate, as I wish I could fly around like Santa Clause and help everyone in the world overnight.

Wouldn't that be nice to be able to do?

OH! I did find an orphanage in Peru. I hope and am planning to open my own when I retire, but through research I've discovered that Peru already has several orphanages.

There are several where you can volunteer during your vacation. It doesn't cost alot either, mainly just your travel expenses and spending money, as they provide room and board at the orphanange.

I'm seriously considering doing that perhaps next Summer. It would give me a better idea of the real needs of the orphans in Peru.

I just feel like I belong there and I cannot explain why. I just know it in my heart.

So, I'm excited about that.

I just need to focus this weekend and sit down and write out some plans for my future and think deeply about the direction I want to go with things in my life.

As much as I love my boyfriend, I'm not sure I'm cut out for the relationship thing.

I have no complaints about him, but I am such a free spirit.

I'm not talking about breaking up with him, I am just hoping I don't overshadow him or make him feel left out or like he is waiting in the wings for me.

He is such a gentle soul and I'm so um... I'm ... heh heh... I don't know how to explain it.

I just don't want him to regret hitching his wagon to such a random soul who is trying to take on the world. I don't really know how to explain it.

I suppose I should throw a load of clothes in the laundry and start cleaning up around here and then get to the store.

I would like to thank all my EPeeps for their support, friendship and love through this crazy time in my life.

And thank you for putting up with the random bitching and moaning.

Light and Peace always,

-ZK

This will probably be my last EP blog for awhile.

I'm starting to keep a handwritten Journal on a more regular basis now, and that brings me real joy.

I write so much more in it then I ever would here. I like remaining anonymous on EP so sometimes have to limit what I say and how I word things.

I am going to write a story about all this in a little while.

Just a little fed up with EP right now.

Light and Peace

-ZK

*i woke  up at 8 am and laid in bed with my oldest cat until 10 am. i wondered what the rest of my pets were up to and imagined my house being terrorized, but all i heard was silence, so i just enjoyed cuddling with Simon kitty*

Finally got up and found them all snoozing in various spots in the living room. God bless them for being good! LOL! I gave them fresh food and water and fixed some coffee, then I wrapped up and took them outside.

We sat on the Pocahontas rock for just a short while, and came back inside. We will go back out later once it has warmed up. It is supposed to be very nice today and tomorrow.

I am going to get some things done around the house first.

I see the House has passed the Health Care Bill. Ugh... I seriously wonder about the direction our country is going.

Boyfriend is starting to feel better. I don't know if he is going to work tomorrow or not. He probably will. I've known him for almost a year now, and he has yet to have called off from work.

I watched the Breeders Cup championship horse race yesterday. It was the best race I've ever seen! This beautiful mare that stands 17 1/2 hands high beat the boys! Whoo-hoo!

I watched the film Food Inc. and am seriously considering going Organic. I just wish it wasn't so expensive. I found it informative and took away from it what I wanted, and disregarded the rest.

*Do not let kids watch Food Inc. and be warned there are several parts showing animals being slaughtered*

The movie 2012 comes out Friday. I think Mom is going to go with me and my boyfriend to see it on the big screen.

So, I really need to log off EP and get some things done. I will hop back on here later.

Light and Peace

-ZK

*yawn*

I slept in until 8 am, and wonder of wonders, my pets actually let me do it! :)

They have been fed and have had their morning romp outside, and I am drinking my first cup of coffee and catching up on the world news, getting mad over what I'm hearing about the new health care bill.

It is supposed to be warm through Monday here, so I hope to spend some time on my Pocahontas rock this weekend, letting the animals romp, and writing in my Journal.

I would like to go horseback riding too. Perhaps tomorrow. I will call the stable today and see if my favorite horse will be available sometime tomorrow afternoon. He's fiesty and always a challenge to ride, but we have a connection.

I also want to draw and use my oil pastels today.

I guess the whole weekend is free for me.

I feel kind of bad about yesterday, because when boyfriend asked me what it means when you are cold and can't get warm, I told him it sounded like he was getting sick and to just take some DayQuil and get some rest.

He ended up having to go to Urgent Care yesterday evening and he has the flu!

I am glad he got it early in the season, as it seems easier to get over now then it does later in the Winter.

Viruses amaze me at how they can 'learn' and adapt to the medicines used against them!

My boyfriend's Mom wants me to call her and I will in a little while. I wonder what she wants? I am thinking she wants to invite me to Thanksgiving or discuss Christmas. His family likes me and I like them. It's nice that we like each other. And my family likes him and likes them, so... it just makes everything so much easier. :)

so much on my mind today

some things I need to find peace with...

I guess where I'm going to be 40 soon, I'm re-evaluating my life and preparing to make some big decisions as to which direction I will try and go with some things.

I have changed so much this year.

I am grateful for this change, I just need to tweak a few things.

And I really want to accomplish a few things on my "To Do List" of Life, not just write and dream about them.

Horse racing is on television today, the Breeder's Cup. There are a few of the races I would like to catch. And, also, the College football game is on at noon.

I shall watch them while I'm doing some other things. I can very rarely just sit and watch tv. I'm usually reading, writing or drawing or EP, while watching television.

Anyway, I have no idea what today will bring.

I continue to wish for Light and Peace for all.

-ZK

*UPDATE*

So my Mom called and asked me if I wanted to run some errands with her. So, we went to Staples and I got some pretty pastel file folders for work,and found the coolest Journal. Mom got me a nifty pen to go with it.

We went to Wal-Mart and I called my boyfriend and asked him what he felt like eating since he has the flu. He said he jus wanted some soups and stuff. I also got him some Rice Krispy treats because he loves sweets, but I figure since he is sick, anything super sweet would taste nasty.

He looked horrible! He's all flushed and his chest is congested. :(

Mom and I got back to my place and ate some of her spagetti. If I had thought ahead of time, I would've taken some for boyfriend to eat once his appetite comes back. Oh, well. There will be other opportunities for him to have her spagetti.

I rented some movies, so after the Breeder's Cup races are over, I'm going to start my new Journal and watch some movies and just eat some PMS food! (salty/sweet/salty/sweet) LOL!

Oh! And I got a delightfully tasty bottle of wine I am looking forward to. I haven't had wine for awhile. I  actually got the cork out the right way! LOL!

*sigh*

so here i am, kissing 40 in the ass, and still haven't figured myself out.

just so much going on right now.

i went to lowe's with dad this morning and helped him load some stuff up for the addition to his garage.

came back home and hung outside with my pets for a short while.

was feeling blah, just wanted left alone, and was trying to come up with some excuse for boyfriend not to come this evening and stay overnight.

just feel like being alone.

then, he calls me and we are talking, and he asked me what it means when you are cold and can't get warm.

i told him it sounds like he is getting sick and he should go ahead and start taking some medicine.

so, i probably won't see him this evening, and maybe not tomorrow and now i feel sad.

grrr...

Today was an odd day.

Not in any bad way really, just odd.

Hard to explain, it was such random stuff.

Still, it was a fairly good day. Not the best, but not the worst either.

Met up with my Mom after work and we went and ate. I had a delicious veggie wrap, which is odd for me because I'm a big meat eater.

It was delicious though. The wrap was cheese/basil with pesto sauce and just stuffed with the freshest veggies.

*please pray for my car, as Mom wants to borrow my car tomorrow and drive it around on errands and such.*

My Mom is not the best driver. She has only been in one accident and it wasn't bad and it wasn't her fault, but she has problems with hitting poles etc. LOL!

We traded cars this evening so I'm keeping my fingers crossed.

I straight up lied to her and I don't feel guilty about it!

She asked, "Does it have as bad a blind spot as my car?"

I said, "Oh yes! Worse! Super bad!"

She laughed and said, "You are lying, you are just saying that so I will be careful!"

LOL!

I stopped at the grocery store and picked up some things, and the lady in the car next to me was feeding a kitten out of a bottle. It was adorable.

I arrive home to find a bag of Turnips on my porch.  I have barely changed from my dress clothes when there is a knock at my door.

A neighbor brought me some Pineapple Upside Down cake! Yummy!

I have the nicest and most considerate neighbors in the world!

I'm looking forward to eating the Turnips too. Several of my neighbors garden and always share their bounty. :)

I romped outdoors with my pets, hating that it gets dark outside so early. Chilly, chilly, chilly tonight.

Dad calls and asks if I will go to Lowes with him tomorrow. He said he "Just wants to pick up some stuff."

*Really odd, because Dad will usually call and say he is going into town and do I need anything or want to go, he's never "requested" I go. I wonder if he has something up his sleeve?"

AND THEN:

I finally settle down with a warm mug of Mocha and a cigarette, and I turn on the world news to find out there was a shooting at Fort Hood.

I'm still watching the story unfold.

An incredibly crazy and sad world anymore. :(

I just cannot wrap my head around the stuff that goes on anymore.

*******

My boyfriend will be staying with me this weekend, starting tomorrow. Mom is going to make us some spagetti and garlic bread and drop it off to us. I think that is sweet of her.

Me and boyfriend plan to watch the Breeder's Cup horseracing on Saturday, even though he is not into horse racing and has never seen them live on tv, he is being a good sport about it. We will also watch the College Football Game. Just a nice, relaxing weekend hopefully.

I give my 4 cats a can of 'good stuff' every evening, they each get a small can of some moist cat food.

Axel, my German Shepherd, gets a big can of wet dog food every evening.

The rest of the day they are free to eat the hard food.

This evening at the store, they had the new catfood "Appetizers" on sale for two for one.

I decided to treat my cats and get them some as a TREAT this evening.

Our usual evening routine is romp outside, come back inside and they each get their can of 'good stuff', then we all settle down for the evening, my sleepy babies with full bellies.

I HAVE LEARNED THAT "APPETIZERS CAT FOOD" IS METH FOR CATS!!!

I HAVE HEARD THAT IF YOU DO METH JUST ONE TIME, YOU ARE INSTANTLY ADDICTED.

MY CAT'S WENT CRAZY THIS EVENING!

MEEKA, MY KITTEN LED THE GANG LOL!

SHE TRIED TO OPEN THE DOOR TO THE PANTRY WHERE I KEEP THE PET FOOD, AND SULLY, FINALLY GOT IT OPEN AND THEY STARTED CLAWING AT THE PLASTIC CONTAINER I KEEP THE HARD CAT FOOD IN.

I GO TO INVESTIGATE AND AM LIKE, "WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING?"

THEN I REALIZED THEY HAD LICKED THEIR "GOOD STUFF" BOWLS COMPLETELY CLEAN, SO I GAVE EACH OF THEM THE OTHER APPETIZERS THAT WERE LEFT.

NOW

THE BELLIES ARE FULL AND THE KITTIES ARE ALL SLEEPY AND PROBABLY ADDICTED TO A NEW AND MORE EXPENSIVE CAT FOOD! LOL!

I GAVE AXEL SOME EXTRA OF HIS SPECIAL TREATS SO HE WON'T FEEL LEFT OUT.

So, even though I can't explain it, I had an odd day. I still feel a little "off".

I don't have a bad feeling, just a feeling something is "UP" somewhere, I just can't figure out where.

All is well with boyfriend, so I don't know where this is coming from.

Dad REALLY has me curious.

It was such an odd request, I just answered "Sure", and didn't think to ask why he wants me to go.

I guess I shall find out tomorrow.

Light and Peace

-ZK

*so it's back to reality soon*

I stayed up late last night on EP, and channel surfing. I was ready to go to bed when I landed on the SyFy Channel and the original mini-series 'V' was starting to play.

I was like, "Oh, no."  Heh heh.

Watched a couple of episodes and then went to bed and watched a little bit more until I couldn't keep my eyes open any longer.

My pets woke me up at 7 but we laid in until 9 a.m. Poor Axel held his personal business I guess, because I looked around and couldn't find any messes. My older cat is coughing up furballs because I've been feeding him hairball food. I know he feels crummy now, but he's got to get that stuff out of his tummy. :(

I turned the news on long enough to see that more beef has been recalled, and that the China government 'seeded clouds' to make it snow.

this world just gets crazier every day.

I'm glad I know how to live off the land! Things seem to get worse and worse in the world every day.

I need to do some laundry and general things around the house.

It's a beautiful sunny morning with traces of fog.

We have a slight chance of rain this afternoon.

Actually looking forward to work tomorrow, as I have some new challenges facing me and I feel better equipped to handle them.

This may sound odd, but I'm having difficulty adjusting to the calm environment at work. I worked 6 years as a Nurse Practitioner, with Doctors who resented that I had my own patients etc. without needing them (the Doctors) for much. The ego's, the attitudes, the stress...

And now, I have a boss who is anal as far as liking things a 'specific' way, but he is a very nice guy and never yells, and if he's stressed, he just turns quiet and standoffish.

I think I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop and it's NEVER gonna drop according to what staff has told me LOL!

I guess I will start taking Cancer patients on the side the first of the year. The Oncologist said he already has a list of patients who are interested in herbal supplements and such. So, at least I get to keep my foot in the door of healthcare, and right now the Government hasn't regulated herbal remedies.

I'm sure they shall get around to it eventually *sigh*

I have a feeling this day is going to get away from me, and that is fine. I'm tired of stressing myself out over silly stuff.

I'm going to start doing what I want to do without feeling guilty that I didn't accomplish alot for the day!!!!

I downloaded a new book on my Kindle e-book. My boyfriend recommended it since I like True Crime books.

It's called: Homicide, Life On The Killing Streets.

It's where a reporter followed Homocide detectives around for a couple of years. Should be interesting.

Well, I have high hopes for a peaceful semi-productive, semi-relaxing day.

Fingers crossed!!  :)

Light and Peace to all

-ZK

*so, the weekend didn't go quite like I planned*

Thursday night, my boyfriend and I passed out Halloween candy to the seven trick or treaters who showed up, and then he stayed all night.

On Friday, we went and got my car detailed and then went to Goodwill, where I got a pair of brown dress pants and some sweaters. Boyfriend got some button up shirts. He had never been there before, and really liked it.

I wondered how he would feel about Goodwill, as some people are funny about buying second hand clothes, but he is like me and thought it was cool he was able to get 6 nice shirts for what one would cost him at Wal-Mart.

Then, we went grocery shopping and stayed overnight at his place. I guess we overindulged with our meat, cheese and crackers tray because both of us were miserable with bellyaches the rest of the night. :x

On Saturday, the weather turned cooler, so we came back to my place. We cannot smoke inside his place (landlord rules), and I think boyfriend was feeling restless and wanted to get away from his place anyway.

Mom and Dad stayed at my place again this weekend. It used to be their place, and in the past few years they would stay in the Summer, and then rent it out to the tourists in the Winter. They moved down in the valley permanately because they are older and tired of the harsh winters on the mountain.

There is plenty of room, so we didn't feel like we were on top of each other until this morning.

I was making my first cup of coffee and Dad wanted a cup and boyfriend wanted hot chocolate, and then Mom got out of bed wanting a cup of coffee. I am a true Zombie before my first cup of coffee, and all I wanted was to get back downstairs under my blanket with sleeves and drink a cup of coffee and smoke a cigarette.

Apparently I growled at Mom, and said, "What do YOU want" When I realized how I sounded, we chuckled, and I apologized.

So then, Dad took the animals outside for a romp and me, Mom and boyfriend are sitting in the living room catching the news on tv when Dad and all the animals come back in and Dad says, "You've got company,"

I was stunned, because if you plan on guests, you register them with the guard at the gate or they cannot get in. I was not expecting guests, so I went to the door and there was a happy family of five, smiles and all.

I greeted them and the Mom asked, "Oh, did we come to early? Have you not checked out yet?"

*checked out?*

After an uncomfortable silence, and confusion, it dawned on me what must have happened.

I invited the family in and explained the situation, then I called the leasing agent. When I took over the house, it was no longer available for lease. Turns out, they have not cancelled past October!!!!

They were to call all those who had scheduled to lease my house and offer a refund or another home in the game preserve. Most have chosen another house, and until today, there have not been any problems.

Fortunately, this family took the news very well, and will be staying in a house close to mine.

I still felt bad for them though.

The leasing agency is sending them a nice gift basket for the mix-up and inconvienence.

Boyfriend left around 11:30, and Mom and Dad left shortly after.

I am unwinding and trying to relax.

I love them, but it was too many people in my personal space. LOL!

I had planned on staying at boyfriends all weekend, but the weather didn't cooperate. And I didn't get Taco Bell or Chinese. :(

Ah well, maybe next weekend.

Still, it went fairly well.

I'm glad Halloween is over as I overdosed on it because it is my boyfriends favorite and he's been celebrating it for almost the entire month of October.

I'm going to play on EP for awhile, and then pull out my oil pastels and draw. I haven't done that for awhile.

Don't know what kind of mood I'm in today.

Alot to think about...

No big drama, just alot to think about.

*i feel like I'm going through a 'growing spurt' of sorts. On the inside, I mean. I will be 40 in a few months, and thought all that would be over with by now.

but... here I am, still changing and growing as a person.